Yesterday was a prime example.
For some crazy reason, I decided to take on writing a novel from the point of view of the main antagonist of my series, Kaden. It's a Macbeth-ish negative character arc situation. Throughout the novel, he lies to people and manipulates them. And yet I have an urge to make him sympathetic.
Call me crazy — I may be. Actually, a certain person who reads my stories had a bit of a joking debate with me about whether I was a sociopath too...it was entertaining, to say the least.
I didn’t like being left alone with my own thoughts like this. After all, they tended to turn to dark places.
Eventually, I got straightened out. But that really was only the tip of the iceberg...I hadn't posted the update yet!
Someone tells me that I should say that the following reactions are how you know you're writing a sociopathic character right. I don't want to be vain, but I will say that the book is messing with people's minds.
I hate you. You are messing with me again...Him sitting on the bed... can I feel bad for younger him? I'm gonna go cry now... and then wanting, NEEDING to talk about it...Stop messing with my HEAD, PLEASE!!!! *wail*... I'm intrigued and tortured at once. WHY DO YOU DO THIS?!?!?
Not cool...You're making me feel bad for KADEN... of ALL people. It had to be Kaden....
Now it's not entirely clear to my readers whether he's a sociopath or just a messed-up dude with a bad past.
And it's going to stay that way.
Of course, next chapter, his shield goes back up...